fuck you you stupid bitch. you deserve less than what you have. one day i will have my moment

 IN THE MEANTIME; YOU WANT FUCKING GREAT MUSIC? LISTEN TO THIS:

The Free Design

 update on health: it might be worse than i thought.

update on life: i got left again by the same person. i am miserable, i am worth nothing, i am tired, i have been hopeful and patient but in the end it did not work.
let me just DIE in peace. although i know i fucking won't. at least, i won't be me taking my own life. let's see what my deep exams of this friday will say about my life expectations.

 i don't know what i have. it's been 10 days now.

i went to a hospital because i felt something in my throat. they gave me antibiotics that didn't work. i went to a doctor again and she said that she's unsure of what it is and i need to take blood exams and some tampons.
i am exhaust.

Behind my walls are my Cats. And behind my Cats is a Peacock singing to me of my death and yours. I said to her "In the silence of an eye, I shall smile and arise, and see someone I used to know sleeping; in her room in her bed in her body I was in Paradise." I am awake in the sound of roses and a young girl's voice. We are drowning in the approaching shadows. I am dreaming and cannot hold it. I have seen.

(Dear Christ: the silence and the loss; we are born and fall. Dear Christ, you too are broken and lost and hanging like a Roman standard over us all.)

David Tibet, Hypnagogue I.

 i have a gorgeous suggesting:



depressed music

 oh god how i fucking hate fucking time days are passing i am doing mistakes towards pretty people i cant stand a single day anymore fuck you fuck me e vaffanculo al motivo del perchè io sto ancora in vita